But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die, I had so much to live for, So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you...



I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we had shared, And all the fun we had.



If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile,
But then I fully realized, That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories, would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne, He said, 'This is eternity,
And all I've promised you.' Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew, I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last, And since each days the same way,
There's no longing for the past.  

You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true, Though there were times you did some things, that You knew you shouldn't do, But you have been forgiven,
And now at last you're free. So won't you come and take my hand,
And share my life with me?

I LOVE YOU TOO........(((((XXOOXXOOXXOO))))),

 JOHNNY

~FROM JOHNNY TO ALL OF MY WONDER FAMILY~

 I will miss spending Valentines Day With my family again this year
But I'm celebrating in Heaven
With our Angels this year.....

Yes our Angels are joyously
Singing in the streets
As the sparling snowflakes
Fall at our feet....

 
 
Each snowflake is designed
By our Angels with care
Singing praises to Jesus
As they float through the air!

Although I will miss
Being with you Everybody whos Dear
I'll be celebrating Valentines Day
Again in Heaven this year.......

I will share all your hopes
and all of your cares
You will always and forever
Be in my prayers....

I just want to tell you
You Always make me proud
I watch you each day
As I sit on a cloud

You keep trying each moment
To stay in His grace
I came here before you
To help set your place

To my friend and my family
Please be thankful this day
I'm still close beside you
Just in a new special way

I love you SO dearly
Please don't shed a tear
Cause I'm just spending Valentines Day
With Jesus again this year......

 




I'M WATCHING FROM HEAVEN MOM.......

I HAVE NOT TURNED MY BACK ON YOU
SO THERE'S NO NEED TO CRY;
I AM WATCHING YOU FROM HEAVEN
JUST BEYOND THE MORNING SKY;
I'VE SEEN YOU FALL APART
WHEN YOU COULD BARELY STAND;
I ASKED THE LORD TO COMFORT YOU
AND WATCHED HIM TAKE YOUR HAND;
HE TOLD ME YOU WERE IN MORE PAIN
THAN I COULD EVER BE;
HE WIPED HIS EYES AND
SWALLOWED HARD
THEN GAVE YOUR HAND TO ME;
ALTHOUGH YOU MAY NOT FEEL MY TOUCH
OR SEE ME BY YOUR SIDE;
I WHISPERED THAT I LOVE YOU
WHILE I DRIED EACH TEAR THAT YOU CRIED...I LOVE YOU MOM...

I WON'T SAY GOODBYE JOHNNY

When God called you Home I questioned why because you were so full of life..... But I have come to the conclusion Honey, and I knew this all along that death is not the end but that it is a brand new start for you....I won't tell You Good Bye, just later....
I'll will tell you I love you and miss you with my whole heart and I speak not only for myself but also for your sister and brother and all else who loved you. It hurts so much....through tear filled eyes I write these wordsto you.....
LATER BABY!!!! 

TO FRIENDS AND FAMILY
Author ~ Elizabeth Dent
 
Go ahead and mention my son,
The one who died you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further,
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry.
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending he didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my son,
Knowing that he has been missed.
You asked me how I was doing.
I say "pretty good" or "fine."
But healing is something ongoing.
I feel it will take a lifetime.

This Site is Also in

 Memory Of My

 Lovely

 Mom and 

Grandma!!!!  

ALWAYS... 
Mother your always with me. 
Your the whisper of the leaves as I walk down the street, your the
smell of certain foods I remember, flowers I pick and perfume
that you wore, your the cool hand on my brow when I'm not
feeling well, your my breath in the air on a cold winter's day. 
Your the sound of the rain that lulls me to sleep, the colors of a
rainbow. 
Mother you live inside my laughter.
And your crystallized in many tear drops.
A mother shows every emotion..........
Happiness, sadness, fear, jealousy, love, hate, anger, helplessness,
excitement, joy, sorrow.....
and all the while, hoping and praying you will only know the good
feelings and love in my life for you.


And My Precious

 Brother Dean 

and Uncle 

Dean!!!!

Dearest Lord, You called my Mother, Sister, Precious Son and my brother home and it hurts so bad, but it was their time to go. Because 
their bodies were weak, and they suffered with pain.
But I know in heaven, they are suffering no more... 

My dear Lord I love you, and I have for so many years...
I need to tell my family how much I miss them~Will you please give this message to them? I am not like before, 1st Mom, then Bette, then my Precious Johnny and then Dean.....I don't understand but I know I will when I join them~

Mom, Bette, Johnny and Dean~ it's me, and I'm not like before. All of you had faith in Jesus, and it makes me see the light and gets me through the suffering my heart goes through....
All of you are angels now that God has sent to me from above~I know that I am not alone~I have all of your love.........
Through all of my trials and tribulations I know that when I can turn to no one else that I am able to get down on my knees and talk to all of you......THANK YOU MY HEAVENLY FATHER.......

And My Dear

 Sweet

 Sister 

Bette and "Aunt 

Bette"!!!

This website is also in loving memory of my precious sister who was also my
best friend.....She received her angel wings on
July 17th, 2001.....Johnnny, his grandmother, his Aunt Bette and Uncle Dean are all angels together in heaven watching over us~

 

To My Dearest Family:

Some things I’d like to say, but first of all to let you know that I’m okay.
I’m writing this from Heaven, where I dwell with God above where there are no more tears or sadness, there is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I’m out of sight, remember that I’m with you every morning, noon and night.

That day I had to leave you when my life on Earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and He said I welcome you.
It’s good to have you back again you were missed while you were gone, and as for your dearest family they’ll be here later on.

I need you here so badly as part of my big plan, there’s so much that we have to do to help our mortal man.
Then God gave me a list of things, He wished for me to do and foremost on that list of mine is to watch and care for you.
And I will be beside you every day and week and year and when you’re sad, I’m standing there to wipe away the tear.
And when you lie in bed at night the days chores put to flight, God and I are closest to you, in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on Earth, and all those loving years because you’re only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be Afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain, remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you of all that God has planned, but if I were to tell you, you wouldn’t understand. But one thing is for certain; though my life on Earth is over I am closer to you now, than I ever was before.

And to my very many friends, trust God he knows what is best. I’m still not far away from you; I’m just beyond the crest. There are rocky roads ahead of you, and many hills to climb, but together we can do it, taking one day at a time. It was always my philosophy, and I’d like it for you too that as you give unto the World, so the World will give to you.

If you can help somebody, who is in sorrow or in pain, then you can say to God at night, my day was not in vain.
And now I am contented, that my life, it was worthwhile, knowing as I passed along the way, I made everybody smile.

So if you meet somebody, who is down and feeling low, just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you are walking down the street, and you’ve got me on your mind I’m walking in your footsteps, only half a step behind, And when you feel the gentle breeze, or the wind upon your face, that’s me giving you a great big hug or just a soft embrace.
And when it’s time for you to go from that body to be free, remember you’re not going, you are coming here to me.
And I will always love you from that land up above.
Will be in touch again soon,
P.S. God sends His Love. And I Do Too.....
HAPPY SPRING MOM, RY, KELLEY, DAD, GRANDMA AND TO ALL OF MY RELATIVES AND FRIENDS~





 Gods Promises Are 

Like the
 
Stars.....


The Darker The night,

The Brighter They 

Shine........

WE LOVE

 YOU 



This is in loving memory of our loved one, John Armore who was born in Virginia on August 28, 1978 and called home on August 01, 2005 at the tender age of 26. John died suddenly of pneumonia, of which he nor we knew that he had....... I was not able to be with him as I live in VA and he was residing in Reno, NV. To not be able to hold him has left a big hole in my heart. We will remember him forever and miss him so very, very much. Honey, you are with angels now and God is holding you tenderly in the palm of his hand~may you rest in peace and know that we will love you forever until we meet again.......... And then throughout eternity.......


.


 .....HE IS SO VERY LOVED AND MISSED.....


~FROM MY JOHNNY~
A shadow of joy flickered; it is me.
I told you I wouldn't leave.
My memories, my thoughts are embedded deep in your heart.
I still love you.
Do not for one moment think that you have been abandoned.
I am in the Light.
In the corner, in the hall, the car~
these are the places I stay with you.
My spirit rises every time you pray for me,
but my energy comes closer to you.
Love does not diminish; it grows stronger.
I am the feather that finds you in the yard,
the dimmed light that grows brighter in your mind,
I place our memories for you to see.
We lived in our special way,
a way that now has its focus changed.
I still crave your understanding
and long for the many words of prayer
and good fortune for my soul.
I am in the Light.
As you struggle to adjust without me,
I watch silently.
Sometimes I summon up all the strength of my new world
to make you notice me.
Impressed by your grief,
I try to impress my love deeper into your consciousness.
As you should, I call out to the Heavens for help.
You should know that the fountain of youth does exist.
My soul is now healthy.
Your love sends me new found energy.
I am adjusting to this new world.
I am with you and I am in the Light.
Please don't feel bad that you can't see me.
I am with you wherever you go.
I protect you,
just as you protected me so many times.
Talk to me and somehow I will find a way to answer you.
I see you with my new eyes.
I am learning to help wherever you are, wherever I am needed.
This can be done because I am in the Light.
When you feel despair, reach out to me. I will come.
My love for you truly does transcend from Heaven to Earth.
Finish your life with the enthusiasm and zest that you had
when we were together in the physical sense.
You owe this to me, but more importantly,
you owe it to yourself.
Life continues for both of us.
I am with you because I love you
and I am in the Light. 






WE SO MISS AND LOVE ALL OF OUR ANGELS IN HEAVEN..........







Wonderful Memories Of Our Dear Angel John......Johnny Is In God's Loving Arms And Will Always Be A Big Part Of Our Lives.....WE MISS YOU HONEY~

It's been over 3 years since our John's been gone . 
I keep thinking what can I do to make this Christmas day special to honor my sweetheart.
I've thought and thought and  I've decided to just give
in to the experience. I figure I'm going to have Christmas no matter what 
so I may as well just open my
heart and see and feel whatever there is to be seen and felt. I wonder if I will just crawl inside of my mind or if I will keep busy and preoccupied~ I do know that I will find myself
reflecting on the past 29 years of his life no matter what.......



Father, God bless all my friends in whatever it is that You know they may be needing this day! And may their life be full of your peace, prosperity and power as he/she seeks to have a closer relationship with you. Amen















 

 I'm feeling sorry for my son ~ he died too soon... and sorry for me and for everyone who loved him. I'm
feeling sorry for all that we have missed together these past 2 years – and for all that
we will miss together in the future. I'm granting myself permission to wallow in these
feelings for the time that I need,because that's what I need. (lesson learned on
the grief journey – don't be afraid or embarrassed to just surrender sometimes).
I'm wanting to share this milestone with those who loved my Johnny, because I
know they feel his loss, also ~ his brother Ryan, his sister, Kelley, his father, his friends but most especially myself. I'll aways wonder what could have been, if only there had never been an August 1st, 2007. I'll bring my son and my memories of him with me. I'll find new ways
to remember Johnny, and I'll try to smile more than I'll cry at those memories. I'll still be Johnny's Mom and he'll 
always be my little boy. I'll be more open to good times;
perhaps I'll even go looking for some – 

Emily Dickinson wrote: "And if I go while you're still here…know that
I live on, vibrating to a different measure, behind a thin veil you cannot see
through. You will not see me, so you must have faith. I wait for the time when
we soar together again, both aware of each other. Until then, live your life to
its fullest and, when you need me, just whisper my name in your heart. I will be
there." 













I love my Johnny. I wish that going into this 3rd year were just a dream...... Just like every
other part of this journey, there's no way around the dips in the road though and I will survive some way, some how, with the strength and love that only God can give to me.......

WE LOVE AND MISS YOU JOHNNY BUT THEN AGAIN YOU KNOW THAT.......................I'M WISHING YOU A BLESSED 2ND ANGELVERSARY HONEY~






















Dearest
Mom~Dad~Ryan~Kelley~Grandma~
All my Relatives and Friends......... 

Please don't mourn for me, I'm still here, though you don't see. I'm right by your side each night and day, and within your heart I long to stay. My body is gone, but I'm always near. I'm everything you feel, see or hear. My spirit is free, but I'll never depart, as long as you keep me alive in your heart. I'll never wander out of your sight, I'm the brightest star on a summer night. I'll never be beyond your reach, I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach. I'm the colorful leaves, when fall comes around, and the pure white snow that blankets the ground. I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond, the clear cool water in a quiet pond. I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring, the first warm raindrop that April will bring. I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine, and you'll see that the face in the moon is mine. 
When you start thinking there's no one to love you, you can talk to me through the Lord above you. I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees, and you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze. I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep and the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep. I'm the smile you see on a baby's face. Just look for me, I'm everyplace ...........
And always remember~I LOVE YOU...





It's the Thought that Counts
(Clay Harrison)
Often in times of trouble
we don't know what to say,
So we choose to say nothing,
and sometimes run away.
When friends are really hurting,
we don't know what to do,
So we offer weak excuses
or say we're hurting too.
It really doesn't matter
what kind of gift we bring;
We only need to be there
if we don't bring a thing.
It truly is amazing
what a hug can do,
When heartache numbs the senses,
and friends depend on you.
There's comfort just in knowing
that you are not alone,
When tears are overflowing,
and hearts are cold as stone.
It's the loving prayers of others
that balance our accounts,
For when we measure love,
it's still the thought that counts.

I Love and Miss My


I am so sad to say that my dear sweet older brother, Dean,  passed away on April 22 also due to pneumonia as John did, but Dean had been battling cancer for the past 5 months.  Needless to say I miss him so very much as we were very close, as I was to my sister, who passed away in 2001 and my mother who passed away in 2001.  Does it ever end~I fear not.  The family that I grew up with are now all gone.....I am not sure how I will survive without my brothers support since the loss of John but I am sure, God willing, I will......Later, Dean and Uncle Dean~WE LOVE AND WILL MISS YOU.........

~MY SPECIAL ANGEL IN HEAVEN ~

There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted him
but where God wanted him to be.

He was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though he is in Heaven
he isn't very far.......

He touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held him every minute
if the end I only knew.........

So I send this special message
to the Heavens up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send him all my love~~ 

My Dear Johnny,
I promise I won't cry forever
But I need to just today.
I promise I will remember
How to live and how to play.

I promise that I'll dry my tears
When the heartache goes away.
I promise that it won't take years
But I need another day.

I promise that I'll live my life
As you would want me to.
I promise when I'm facing strife
I'll face it straight and true.

I promise I will endeavor
To do the best I can each day.
I promise I won't cry forever
But I need to just today.......
I miss you so much honey~
Loving you forever and ever
Until I see you again,
Mom

My Dearest John how can I tell you what you mean to me~
I love you very much and I'm as proud as I can be.
From the first time that I saw you, so cute and nestled close 
I knew that as your mother I had the right to boast.

The day God called you home and you had to leave and go
My heart broke in two peices because I love you so.
But no one or anything can take the memory of my loving son
I'll keep them locked in my heart until my life is done.

Although your now in Heaven, we're still a family
And one day we'll be together for all eternity.
We can go exploring everything, all of Heaven's joys
Just  me, your loving mother and you, my darling boy.

Until that day arrives I'll keep you in my heart
Those memories are what keep us from being far apart.
So, my dear John, for that day we have to wait.
But when indeed it truly comes, please meet me at the gate~~~

Mom,
Tomorrow I will be there
Though you may not see
I'll smile and remember
The last yesterdays with you and me~

Please don't be so sad mom
I'm never far away
Your heart has hidden sight
My memory will always stay

I watched as you touched my urn, Mom
Sometimes a tear was shed 
I touched you gently on your shoulder
And on tiptoes I proudly stood ~

I'm only gone for a little while mom
I'm waiting for the day to be
When God calls out your name mom
We'll be together, just you wait and see...

But until that time comes
Carry on as you did when I was there
I tell the angels how much I love you
There are angels here everywhere!

I stand behind you some days
When I know that you are sad
I want you to be happy mom
It would make my heart so glad...

So just for today, Mom
Think of me as I will be thinking of you
And touch that special picture
That I once made for you~

I love you mom and Ry and Kell
I know you know I do
And I'll be waiting here for you
When your earthly life is through

Love, Your Johnny in Heaven

I was with you...all day today, Mom. 

I walked with you, along the way.

I’ve seen your eyes. I know your fear.

I wish you understood how I am here.

I am here because you know me.

You know me through and through.

You recognize my voice, because it recognizes you.

The truth says it’s not different now, only you can’t see

Because you use your eyes and ears, you may not know it’s me.

So, close your eyes and rest your thought, let me show you how

To know that I am with you, so you will never doubt.



I use the wind, instead of lips, when I want to kiss your cheek.

I’m morning dew in the air that makes you think of me.

I’m the bird outside your window that wakes you way too soon.

I’ll be the loudest of them all, so you’re sure to catch my tune.

Give to me the moment, every time I cross your mind.

Don’t dare pull away, because you lack the time.

I’m trying very hard to tell you I am near.

On the radio, there I am, the very next song you hear.

I have a message just for you.

Don’t pull away, let it through.

Listen! Listen! Not for my voice, listen! Shhhhh.

Those words are my choice.

There’s a stranger passing by, bumps your shoulder, catch his eye.

There I am. Please be kind.

The old book you found yesterday underneath the bed,

Turn the page, stop anywhere. Tell me, what have you read?

Me! A message from me, the only way I do.

There I am, everywhere. Now I’m more a part of you.

I’m the flower in your garden that blooms with little rain,

Giving you beauty, in color, in hopes to ease your pain.

I’m a child with a smile or a baby with a tear.

Look at my face carefully, can’t you see me clear?

I will help you now, carry your burden light.

Know that I will hold you. Walk your days and sleep your nights.

I can do this now, because I have no limit you see.

I have all the world as tools to give you Love from Me.

Although it’s time to close this note, my words still linger on,

And my heart is burning brightly now, so

Listen! Shhhhh....I'm talking to your heart~  

I thought of you with love today,
but that is nothing new,
I thought about you yesterday and days
before that too.

I think of you in silence, I often speak
your name,
All I have are memories and your
picture in a frame.

Your memory is my keepsake, with
which I'll never part.
God has you in His keeping, I have you
in my heart